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And so I came to the new and barren chapel。 I brought with me the requisite flowers and incense�察�and several bottles of scent with which to sprinkle Akasha's garments�察�and once I had lighted the lamps and set the incense to burning�察�once the flowers were in their vases�察�I felt an overall weakness and went down on my knees。
Let me remind you again that during my years with Pandora�察�I almost never prayed in this mariner。 But now Akasha belonged only to me。
I looked up at the unchanged couple�察�with their long black plaited
hair�察�seated on the throne as I had left them�察�both freshly dressed in their Egyptian clothes of fine linen�察�Akasha in her pleated gown�察�the King in his kilt。 Akasha's eyes still wore the imperishable black paint which Pandora had so carefully applied。 And around Akasha's head was the glistening gold diadem with its rubies which Pandora had placed there with loving hands。 Even the gold snake bracelets on her graceful upper arms had been the gift of Pandora。 And on the feet of the two were the sandals which Pandora had fastened with care。
It seemed in the wealth of light that they had grown paler in plexion
and I know now�察�centuries later�察�that I was right。 They were healing rapidly from the Terrible Fire。
On this particular visit�察�I also paid keen attention to the expression of Enkil。 I was too aware of the fact that he did not and had never incited my devotion�察�and I thought this was unwise。
In Egypt when I had first e to find them ´ a zealous new blood drinker�察�inflamed by Akasha's plea to take them out of Egypt ´ he had moved to block my path to the Queen。
Only with difficulty had he been made to return to his posture of seated King。 Akasha had cooperated in that all´important moment�察�but the movements of both of them had been sluggish and unearthly and dreadful to behold。
That had been three hundred years ago�察�and the only gesture from either of them since had been the open arm of Akasha to wele
Pandora to herself。
Oh�察�how Pandora had been blessed in that gesture from Akasha� �I would never forget it all my long years。
What were Enkil's thoughts�察�I asked myself。 Was he ever jealous that I addressed my prayers to Akasha�拭�Did he even know��
Whatever the case�察�I told him in a silent voice that I was devoted to him�察�that I would always protect him and his Queen。
At last�察�reason left me as I gazed on them。
I let Akasha know how much I revered her and how dangerous it had been for me to e。 Only out of caution had I remained away。 I would never on my own have left the shrine deserted。 Indeed�察�I should have been here�察�using my vampiric skill to create paintings for the walls
or to make for them mosaics´ for though I never thought of myself as having possessed any skill in this regard´ I had used my powers to make passable decorations for the shrine in Antioch�察�indeed very good ones�察�whiling away the lonely hours of the night。
But here the walls were simply whitewashed and the abundant flowers I'd brought seemed wele color indeed。
;My Queen�察�help me�察─�I prayed。 And then as I meant to explain how miserable I was over the nearness of these two fellow blood drinkers�察�a dreadful and obvious thought came to my mind。
I could never have Avicus for a panion。 I could never have anyone。 For any blood drinker of even passable skill could learn from my mind the secret of Those Who Must Be Kept。
It had been vain and foolish for me to offer clothing and lodging to Avicus and Mael。 I was doomed to be alone。
I felt sickened and cold in my misery。 I looked up to the Queen and I could form no prayers with words。
Then quite helplessly I begged�此 �Bring Pandora back to me。 If ever you brought her to me in the first place�察�bring her back�察�I beg you�察�I'll never quarrel with her again。 I'll never abuse her again。 This is unendurable�察�this loneliness。 I need to hear the sound of her voice。 I need to see her。;
On and on I went in this manner�察�until suddenly I became alarmed that Avicus and Mael might be near to me�察�and I rose to my feet�察�straightened out my garments and made to take my leave。
;I'll return�察─�I told the Mother and Father。 ;I'll make this shrine beautiful like the one in Antioch。 Only let us wait until they've gone。; I was about to go out when abruptly the thought occurred to me´I needed more of Akasha's powerful blood。 I needed it to be stronger than my foes。 I needed it to endure what I had to endure。
Now understand�察�never since the first night that I had drunk from Akasha�察�had I taken more of her blood。 That first night had been in Egypt when she told me with the Mind Gift to take her out of the land。 Then and only then had I experienced the blood。
Even when Pandora was made a blood drinker�察�and she drank from Akasha�察�I had not dared to approach the Mother。 In fact�察�I knew well how the Mother might strike down those who came by force to steal the Sacred Blood from her�察�for I'd witnessed such an aborted crime。
Now as I stood before the small dais with its seated royalty�察�the idea obsessed me。 I must again take the Mother's blood。
In silence I begged permission。 I waited for a sign。 When Pandora had been made�察�Akasha had lifted her arm to beckon。 I had seen it and marveled at it。 I wanted such a thing to happen now。
No such sign came to me�察�however�察�and yet the obsession raged
within me�察�until I moved forward�察�quite determined to drink the Divine Blood or die。 I found myself suddenly embracing my cold and lovely Akasha with one arm behind her and the other lifted so that my hand held her head。
Closer and closer I came to her neck。
At last my lips were pressed against her cool unresponsive flesh and she had made no move to destroy me。 I felt no fatal clasp on the back of my head。 Silent as ever she remained in my arms。
Finally my teeth broke the surface of her skin and the thick blood�察�blood like that of no other among us�察�came into my mouth。 At once I found myself dreamy and cast adrift in an impossible paradise of sunshine and green grass and flowering trees。 What a fort it was�察�what a balm。 It seemed a garden of old Roman myth�察�one somehow familiar to me�察�protected forever from winter�察�and full of the most blessed blooms。
Yes�察�familiar and forever safe�察�this verdant place。
The blood ravaged me�察�and I could feel it hardening me�察�as it had the very first time it had e into my veins。 The sun of the familiar garden grew brighter and brighter until the flowering trees began to disappear in the light。 Part of me�察�some very small and weak part of me was afraid of it�察�this sun�察�but the larger part relished it�察�relished the warmth that was passing into me�察�and the fort of what I beheld�察�and then all at once�察�as quickly as it had begun�察�this dream was ended。
I lay on the cold hard floor of the shrine�察�several yards away from the foot of the dais。 I was on my back。
For a moment I was uncertain of what had happened。 Was I injured�拭�Was there to be some terrible justice in store�拭�But within seconds�察�I realized I was as sound of limb as ever�察�and that the blood had greatly invigorated me just as I'd supposed。
I rose to my knees�察�and made certain with quick eyes that the Royal Pair remained as before。 Why had I been thrown away from Akasha with such violence�拭�Nothing was changed。
Then for a long time I gave my silent thanks for what had taken Place。 Only when I was certain that nothing further was to happen�察�I rose to my feet�察�and declaring that I would be back soon to begin my decorations of the shrine�察�I left。
I was enormously excited as I returned to my house。 My increased agility�察�and keenness of mind were more than wele。 I determined
to test myself�察�and taking my dagger�察�I plunged it all the way through my left hand�察�and then withdrew it�察�watching the wound as it immediately healed。
At once I spread out a scroll of the finest parchment and I began to write in my personal code which no other could read�察�of what had taken place。 I didn't know why�察�after taking the Sacred Blood�察�I had found myself on the floor of the chapel。
;The Queen has allowed me to drink again from her�察�and if this is to happen often�察�if I can take nourishment from our mysterious majesty�察�I can attain enormous strength。 Even the blood drinker Avicus will be no match for me�察�though this might have been the case before this night。;
Indeed�察�as it turned out I was precisely right about the implications of this incident�察�and during all the centuries to e�察�I approached Akasha again and again。
I did this not only when severely injured´a tale I mean to tell you´but I did it at times when the fancy caught hold of me as if she had put it in my mind。 But never�察�never�察�as I have confessed with bitterness�察�did she ever press her teeth to my throat and take from me my own blood。
No�察�that distinction was left for the blood drinker Lestat�察�as I have said。
In the following months�察�this new blood served me well。 I found that the Mind Gift was stronger in me。 I could well detect the presence of Mael and Avicus when they were quite far away�察�and though such spying opens a mental passage as it were by which they could see me as their observer�察�I was able�察�after seeing them�察�to quickly close myself off。
I was also able to tell quite easily when they were searching for my presence�察�and of course I heard�察�positively heard�察�their footsteps when they were in the precincts of my house。
I also opened my house to humans��
The decision came to me one evening as I lay on the grass in my own garden dreaming。 I would have regular banquets。 I would invite the notorious and the slandered。 I would have music and dim lamps。
I considered the matter from every perspective� �I knew that I could arrange it。 I knew that I could fool mortals as to my nature�察�and how their pany would soothe my lonely heart� �I did not go to my daily rest in my house�察�but in a hiding place far from it�察�so what danger could there be in this new decision�拭�None whatsoever��
It could easily be done。
Naturally�察�I would never feed upon these guests。 They would enjoy plete safety and hospitality under my roof�察�always。 I would hunt in far precincts and under cover of darkness。 But my house�察�my house would be full of warmth and music and life。
Well�察�I went about it�察�and it proved far simpler than I had ever dreamt。
Having my sweet and good´natured old slaves lay out tables rich with food and drink�察�I brought in the disreputable philosophers to talk away the night to me�察�and I listened to them in their rambling�察�as I did to the old and neglected soldiers who had tales of war to tell which their own children did not want to hear。
Oh�察�this was a miracle�察�the admission of mortals to my very rooms�察�mortals who thought me to be alive as I nodded and coaxed them in their wine´fed stories。 I was warmed by it�察�and I wished that Pandora were here with me to enjoy it for it was precisely the sort of thing which she would have wanted us to do。
Soon my house was never empty�察�and I made the amazing discovery that should I bee bored in the midst of this heated and drunken pany it was a simple matter for me to get up and go into my library and begin writing�察�for all the d
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